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Thursday, June 21st, 2007
10:27 pm	Moving Moving sucks....makes Jon sad....sadder to go back to parents. Love parents...but no live there...yuck. Hopefully not to long though. Current Mood: sad Current Music: FMA-Ready, Steady, Go (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 12th, 2007
10:07 am	You Are A Poplar Tree People tend to look up to you, and it's a bit lonely at the top. Inside, you are not always self confident, but you show great courage. Mature and organized, you are reliable in any situation. You tend to have an artistic or philosophical outlook on life. You are very choosy in love and take partnership seriously. What's Your Celtic Horoscope? You Can Change Your Life, But It Won't Be Easy You really, truly want to change. You're just not sure that you can do it. You need a solid plan, supportive friends, and a strong will. Think about times you've made hard changes, and what you did to get through them. A change is in your future - you just need a little help getting started. Can You Change Your Life? Current Music: Only God Knows Why - Kid Rock (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 10th, 2007
8:18 pm	O' Family, what would I do without your tact? I'm back from my small vacation to see my family in PA. It was alright for the most part. Connor had a blast and everyone was pretty down that Morgan was there, especially her cousins (2nd cousins in think), Victora looks so much like her just slightly older, lol...acts like her too. Maybe I can take both of the kids up at the end of the month, but that may be a hassle trying to arrange since I doubt I'll have Morgan, and starting a new job soon. I hated being up there though, it just left me little empty. I was surprised how many times anyone asked about Dorie. Most of my family know about the separation, but that's about it..and only because Morgan said something last she was there, lol. They asked how Dorie was, and if I talk and/or see her, and all I could say is no and how I hope she was well. Even funny was one of my aunts going on about how beautiful the wedding was, how gorgeous Dorie and Morgan looked, the dresses, the bride's maids, etc etc etc...and I'm just standing there looking at her (smiling and nodding of course) trying to keep the conversion going....for like 25 minutes though. I think someone told her about things after the facts though, and this aunt being so full of tact of course, comes up to me and ask if I've tried to reconcile with my wife...such a tactful family at times...of course them drinking doesn't help. Even two of my cousins asked where she was because they are getting married soon and I guess wanted girl talk, idk. I didn't talk about my life though, leaving responses to questions with simple and polite cut-off answers...just better that way, and I'm honestly glad that my family is in the dark about everything, I honestly liked talking about the bright side of being married, then the miserable lonely side I have to deal with now. I don't think I want to live in Maryland anymore though, yeah I'm not going anywhere, but there are so many nicer places to live. Maybe it's just current events, idk, but I just want to get a job, getting alittle schooling in a trade, and find somewhere else. I know nothing works like you want, and I can never really leave Maryland now if I wanted to, the whole Morgan stuff would not work out, I just need her to much, and her Mother needs her just as much. Just a dream I guess,...hell, going to school is a dream amoung its' self, lol. This has been a emotional week to say the least, and a week were I honestly thought maybe everything is going to work out for the best or even things are getting better, stupid optimism. How dare you enter my mind. Stupid work, Stupid divorce, Stupid no more school soon, and Stupid Jon. :( I just want a quiet life too.... Just Jon thoughts I guess. :| Maybe some quizzes will help!!! Your Wrestler Name Is... Bloodstained King of Pain What's Your Wrestler Name? You Will Be a Cool Parent You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need. You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law. While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top. You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant! Would You Be a Cool Parent? On Average, You Would Sell Out For $1,046,436 At What Price Would You Sell Out? What Jonathan Means J is for Juicy O is for Outgoing N is for Naughty A is for Ambitious T is for Tasty H is for Honorable A is for Alluring N is for Nutty What Does Your Name Mean? Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover. What Kind of Seducer Are You? Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: A.Cooper-Stolen Prayer, Hole-Doll Parts (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 2nd, 2007
5:37 pm	You've Experienced 84% of Life You have an amazing amount of life experience. In fact, you've seen and done more than most people. So congratulate yourself on what you've done so far. The future is only going to be more of the same! How Much Life Experience Do The Part of You That No One Sees You are compassionate, caring, and soothing. You like other people to depend on you... In fact, you don't feel right unless you are helping someone out. Underneath it all, you feel the burden of everyone's problems. Without your guidance, you fear that many people's worlds would fall apart. You like to feel in charge, even if it brings you a lot of stress. What's the Part of You That No One Sees? Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 29th, 2007
9:44 pm	Whiskey, Vodka or Wine huh....hmmm, guess I could see that You scored as whiskey. you are whiskey! hard and a bit dangerous, you know how to have a good time and somewhere underneath that tough, rule breaking exterior is an even tougher interior. </td> wine 83% whiskey 83% vodka 83% rum 71% daiquaries 58% midori 58% beer 58% bourbon 58% absinthe 54% champagne 29% what alcoholic drink are you (pictures) created with QuizFarm.com (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 28th, 2007
12:16 pm	You scored as Gambit. Gambit is another loner character. He loves Rogue. He has a very cool deboner personality. He's done things in his past that he's not proud of but he atones for his actions by fighting for peace with the X-Men. His weapon of choice is the playing card. Powers: Charges objects with kinetic energy by touching them, then they explode like grenades. </td> Gambit 100% Iceman 100% Wolverine 100% Emma Frost 80% Rogue 80% Colossus 75% Storm 60% Cyclops 55% Jean Grey 50% Nightcrawler 45% Beast 40% Most Comprehensive X-Men Personality Quiz 2.0 created with QuizFarm.com (1 Comment |Comment on this)
7:52 am	A Memorable Weekend Strange how it only takes a brief period of time with certain people to change things you thought were so cemented into your personality that that would just be how it is forever. Some of you may understand, when you have a close friend, even if you rarely get to see and talk with them, even for years, when you are with them it's almost like you never parted. For me individuals like ratspy and dukgrrl are two of the almost unique people I would ever call a close friend. Even the times we don't see eye to eye about things, even the months to years with no contact, being around those type of people in my life gives me a "relaxing" feeling with the moment and a deep enjoyment of there company, as I hope they have felt on some level with my company. I could go on, talking about it, and by far I am not speaking poorly of those not named, that's just how it is, but that's enough led up to my real post, lol. I attended a wedding this past saturday, maybe not the best thing to do, consider my current state of events, but I should shelter myself in my home, so I went. An old friend Tanya was getting married, and though I haven't seen her for almost 5 years plus she wasn't invited during a final cut at my wedding, why..idk, I was vigorous sot after to attend hers. Which made me feel even stronger to go and see my "second" family again. Strangely, however people feel about Tanya, she's been there when I've needed someone for a long time, even since 94, when we first meet in English class. I knew there would be more old acquaintances there, though not really sure who. Tina, Tanya's sister, I had talked to slightly over the past few months, had really grown up. She slimmed down and looked healthier then I've ever seen her. Sam, JT, and DC were there. And there company joined with mine was a bit much for the tone of a wedding, lol, but it helped the process of being there. Even hung out with Sam and DC at the apartment late into the night mainly chillin with me, Tina and Krys. Last but not least, was Krys. Somehow I felt has if the wedding was planned just to see me and her reaction towards each other, being 11 years since we last saw each other, and the way that went down. I definitely felt outside forces worming there little fingers around for that scenario. Her and I have talked and tried to support each other about our marriages and dealing with children, etc. lol, for awhile now. It was a strange bond in our conversions, all the horrible similarities in our lives after she lefted to now. Anyways, after some odd duck and cover peeks by her, and the stress of a wedding she was part of, we finally got time to say our formal hellos, lol. I had like 3 people looking for me to talk to her. We were practically together the whole weekend nights after the wedding, the kids had the day of course, and yes...no sleep most the time...what else is new :P. Her company was something I very much needed. I feel better then I've felt in a long time, and she felt "weightless" around me, no worries that things would be fine when I'm around. I like knowing that just being in the presence of a close friend makes a difference, I think that may be just true difference between a friend and a close one. The pleasure of that company didn't last, and once again, I was the last one to see her leave. Hard to lose someone twice. Strange how it only takes a brief period of time with certain people to change things, I got alot from this weekend, and I hoping that I will have this type of periods with the people here, close friends and the friends I like to abuse, lol. The effort you guys are putting to keep me going means alot. Careful people, see why I don't write this crap down. Well, least you know a neanderthal can type...about whatever I just typed up. :) Other notes: I've been working alot, and that's ok i guess, used to that. Enjoying my time with Cow, Gary, Kathy, hamsterlord, and of course blackoaknyph. Connor and Morgan are doing great. Though I'm starting the see the changes in them that the current situations are having, and it hurts me deeply. All the pain I feel, they have to feel it twice as bad at points. All of the actions I take and do are for them with them being the strongest causes for all actions in my life. Maybe things wouldn't be so bad if others felt as I do, but my options on that are few. Hopefully my best will be good enough, I'm honestly optimistic about alot currently. JR/ JR/ Current Mood: rejuvenated Current Music: Sound the bugle - G Greenaway, Paper Flowers - Evanscence (Comment on this)
7:34 am	REALLY?!!! What A Surprise! LOL What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract unstable people! Congrats, you are an 'insane' magnet, and you probably have no idea why. Something about your mix of styles, how you walk not just 'one' lifestyle, but appear to have a foot in them all. To the insane, you appear to be a beacon of hope and they will flock to you, like it or not. But, they ARE insane. Lucky for you, the insane tend to be the best sexual lovers, just the rest of the package deal may not be for you. You attract artsy people! You attract models! You attract geeks! You attract Yuppies! You attract rednecks! What type of person do you attract? Quizzes for MySpace HOW ATTRACTIVE ARE YOU? Your Result: you are HOT   you have georgious features and your beautiful. you must get stopped all the time and asked if your a model, if your not you should be. you have alot of what other people would want you stand out of a crowd and when you walk in a public place people stare and heads turn your not bad at all   its ok, you may grow into your looks   HOW ATTRACTIVE ARE YOU? See All Our Quizzes Hmm...must have save it or something, did these days ago...o-well, mo quizzes, mo quizzes, mo quizzes. :) Current Mood: geeky Current Music: Silent Lucidity - Queensryche (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 17th, 2007
7:36 am	Stop please, your making me not take quizes. :) People understand that this situation isn't just effecting 2 different parties, but multiple ones. To my friends and family, thank you. It's so hard for me to ask for help and support, i never do, but I'm glad to have you all around. Good and bad, you all do know me and know what I've been through for over a year, to a month ago, and help me keep going from here after. I'm glad I never had to ask any of you, you all were just there. To those who stalwartly try to remain neutral, it honestly must be hard, given the situation, to be truly neutral. Either you believe one side more or usually have reasons, whatever they may be, to favor one over the other. Wish I could be in your shoes, lol, but I do understand the position, and without a reason besides neutrality, my opinions of you haven't changed no matter what is said. Please, Don't post any responses to the slander that's being push around by individuals, let them lie. Yes, it's upsetting knowing people have sunk so low, or are that bored, or have nothing to go on but falsehoods, but there really is no reason for any of this. I've always stated that I don't want this to get messy, even after everything I've been put through, alot of this I feel is still wrong. Let me fight my way, and not discredit yourselves or create conflict. Just let them write, maybe they'll work some of the kinks out of their multiple stories, and pick the best one, maybe they're looking for audience participation, lol. Sorry, I'm trying to keep any personal opinion about alot of stuff out, like a general stand on things, guess one slipped. :) Anyways, wow, I finally wrote an actually livejournal :), sorry such a crapping subject though. Hmmm..ok. Morgan is doing alot better in the last couple of weeks from what her teacher said, "Things if you asking me a month ago, I would have said, "no way"." I know she missed me so much, and I'm glad she is doing even better then her usually good self since a came back. She is my reason for going through all the current hardships, and I'd suffer 10 times over just to have her near me. I will never give up my blood just because of false threats, I am not a part-time father, a weekend dad..not to 4 kids, not to 2 kids and not to 1. I think everybody should be that way when it comes to their children. She is such my joy when she smiles. Connor, my son, he is my strength, the reason I walk, the reason I stand. Without him, I would be so different now. Never knowing his mother, and losing the only woman he's ever called that, it breaks me up inside that he gives me so much, but is again robbed of so much more. With resent events, I sometimes try so hard not to leave him out of my time, hopefully I'm his strength too, because he's still rolling with the punches, like me I guess. He loves his sister so much, though he'll find it hard to tell her, spends his points from school and gets her books and stickers, etc. all on his own. Misses his family though, but understands alot, far more then I'd like sometimes..we talk alot about it, it's never easy for me though, but he understands that and so we then play or cook, lol. For myself, it start over you know, after so long at suffering and making alot of sacerfices to give your family the necessities in life, then half your reasons in life to leave under such unfortunite circumstances, but most of you know my story about it and hopefully, for your judgement, another. I work, sleep, and the kids..same old same old, lol. And then larp, which I'm thankfully to all the larpers for still coming, especially the narrators Ian, Chris, Gordon, Rob and Eric for the effort they have done, thank you. The money is still alittle weak, but at least I can put Connor and Morgan under my medical ASAP which is like the best thing to happen out of this. I work out alot more now, jail..go figure right,..plus even better is that I have started to read for myself again! I really haven't read anything since I was reading to all 4 kids before bedtime...it's not much, Harry Potter...ok you can laugh, but it's a great start and another very good thing coming out of all of this. Almost worth it....maybe not, lol. Thanks for the BS time, hopefully I'll start doing quizes again :), and not need to write so much. Remember, if this is how it's going to be, people can say what they want, let them. It's their life, they can ruin it all they want, doesn't really bother me. I'm currently as happy as I allow myself to be, I hold myself back not them, everything will calm down soon enough. No matter who you are, take care. JR/ Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Judas - Perfect Circle and Shot in the Dark - Ozzy (Comment on this)
Monday, September 18th, 2006
4:37 pm	You Are 89% American You're as American as red meat and shooting ranges. Tough and independent, you think big. You love everything about the US, wrong or right. And anyone who criticizes your home better not do it in front of you! How American Are You? You Are Midnight You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends. What Time Of Day Are You? You're Totally Sarcastic You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny. Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it. And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad. How Sarcastic Are You? (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 17th, 2006
5:57 pm	Going to Hell? Me? The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge! Here is how you matched up against all the levels: Level Score Purgatory (Repenting Believers) Very Low Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) Very Low Level 2 (Lustful) Very High Level 3 (Gluttonous) Moderate Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) Moderate Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) High Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) Low Level 7 (Violent) High Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) Extreme Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) High Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test (Comment on this)
Friday, May 19th, 2006
6:03 pm	Which X-men Character Are You? Gambit! This energy-charged card-tossin' Cajun fights for himself most of the time. He makes a strong ally when he's with you...if he's with you. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 8th, 2006
1:57 pm	So little time has past. Well after 2 months of hell, it shows how much of a downward spiral in kindred society i've fallen. You scored as Gangrel. You belong to the Gangrel bloodline. Gangrel are very in touch with nature and for this reason are often loners and hermits. They have a very keen sense of the beast inside them and can let it out with devastating results. They do, however, have a bit less control over their impulsive, animalistic nature and are easy to drive into an uncontrollable frenzy. </td> Gangrel 88% Malkavian 79% Brujah 79% Tremere 63% Toreador 58% Nosferatu 50% Ventrue 42% What vampire clan do you belong to? created with QuizFarm.com (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
8:49 am	She's pretty hot. :) You Are 80% Evil You are very evil. And you're too evil to care. Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot. How Evil Are You? Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
8:35 am	You Are Lightning Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing What Type of Weather Are You? (Comment on this)
8:01 am	You Are a Retrospective Soul The most misunderstood of all the soul signs. Sometimes you even have difficulty seeing yourself as who you are. You are intense and desire perfection in every facet of your life. You're best described as extremely idealistic, hardworking, and a survivor. Great moments of insight and sensitivity come to you easily. But if you aren't careful, you'll ignore these moments and repeat past mistakes. For you, it is difficult to seperate the past from the present. You will suceed once you overcome the disappoinments in life. Souls you are most compatible with: Traveler Soul and Prophet Soul What Kind of Soul Are You? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 7th, 2006
8:52 am	Your Five Variable Love Profile Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is high. It's your way or the highway when it comes to love. You like to be very involved in your sweetie's life. No question, you like to be the one calling the shots. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship. The Five Variable Love Test (Comment on this)
Monday, March 6th, 2006
4:06 pm	I do like shotguns. :) You scored as Shotgun. Bang! You need shotgun, because it can transform enemy into bloody spaghetti in no time. Maybe you played DOOM too much... </td> Shotgun 69% Assault Rifle 63% Sniper Rifle 56% Machinegun 56% Pistol 50% SMG 50% Revolver 31% What Firearm Fits You Best? created with QuizFarm.com (1 Comment |Comment on this)
3:46 pm	You scored as Mysterious. You wish to hide who you are from all those around you. You find it very hard to trust people. You also may enjoy the fun that comes from playing mind games with others around you. My advice Get out there and reveal the true you if only to one person! Become a VampireClick here!! </td> Mysterious 100% Diamond Eyes 100% Passion 67% Eyes full of Pain 58% What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!) created with QuizFarm.com You scored as Whips. Your turn on is the "good ol'" whip. You either like to feel in charge during sex, or you like to feel pain. Sex isn't sex unless it's rough. </td> Whips 83% Chains/Handcuffs 67% Biting 67% Bondage 67% Blood 50% Blind Folds 42% What's Your Kinky Turn On? created with QuizFarm.com (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006
6:20 pm	For the Ladies You scored as Sex God. You are a master at sex. You make your partner weak in the knees, and you know it. You've had the practice, and you've read the books, but don't get too cocky (pun intended) or you'll get put into place. </td> Sex God 80% A Slave To BDSM 75% A Romantic 50% Virgin 33% How are you in bed created with QuizFarm.com (Comment on this)